I am trying to get out of this rut that I have fallen into. I cannot continue to do this to myself. I am starting to become aware that I do not belong at a regular desk job!
I am not meant to sit at this desk and push this pencil (slap these computer keys)around like a mindless zombie. I am starting to read and to listen to different entrepreneurs that talk about what drove them to start a business, how they become successful, and what they have realized after becoming successful.
All of them talk about becoming self-aware! They (internally) became aware that a normal 9-5 job was not for them. They saw more in their life than that nonsense. That is what I am starting to realize more and more each day as I sit here writing these blog entries while sitting at this"going-no-place" job. As I become increasingly frustrated with my situation, I catch myself just thinking about how successful I could be if I weren't sitting here. What I would be doing, and how I could be really using my strengths!
Entrepreneurs always say that this life is not for everyone! An entrepreneurial life has many long days/times, stressful times, and detail-oriented meetings. Many people cannot deal with this life, and they do not last. As I think about it, that type of life was how I lived in college (extremely successfully by the way). I mean it was not my lively-hood, but it meant everything to me at the time. All I wanted to do was work for a company helping them develop strategies on the next move or the next big thing. That is all I did in college .I have not been successful at gaining those positions! I have not been successful in the job market!
Now, I sit at this desk and stare off into space. This is why I am coming to the conclusion that I need to do something else. Not just getting a new job! Creating a job. Creating many jobs! I need to execute the business plan I have been working on since August/September 2015. What is holding me back?
Different parts of life are holding me back from doing what I see as my future! I need to pay bills, I have a car that needs to be maintained, and I need to move out of my parents house :( ! The worst part of this is that I am no closer to that last goal (moving out of my parents house) than I was when I left college.
I am miserable at work, I work my ass off to just get by (and I mean barely get by), and I am nowhere closer to my goal of become financially independent with a mortgage. I was extremely successful in all levels of college under more pressure each year.
As the title states, I am becoming more self-aware with each passing day! I am more aware of who I am than I ever have been in my life. As I stated, I need to get over life fears, and I need to start real business execution.
Thoughts or comments?!?!?
:) Jaymo
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